I participated in a Influencer Activation on behalf of Influence Central for First Response. I received product samples as well as a promotional item to thank me for my participation.
I like to think I am one with my fertility. I know when it’s time to conceive and when it’s time to avoid a romp in the sack. Natural family planning works when you mind your P’s and Q’s.
Better known as not moving any unnecessary muscles until you chart your temperature.
I usually listen to good ole Mother Nature when she hints at ovulation. Except that one time.
That one time I was fresh out the shower and no release of an egg was stopping me from a bit of brown chicken, brown cow. Mother Nature and her dirty tricks.
I STARTED TO FEEL THE SAME CRAMPING I EXPERIENCED WITH MAVERICK.
Quit it. It can’t be. We used a condom.
But it was the exact same everything I had experienced with my last pregnancy, almost 365 days later.
A laundry list of emotions washed over me in the three minutes it took for the easy to read, pink lines to appear. I was overjoyed. Then I was scared. And then the anxiety set in. There was so much anxiety knowing I would disappoint all of the friends and family who had helped, and are still helping, me recover.
It got to the point where the guilt was so intense I was unable to fall asleep without worry. Without wondering if tomorrow would be the day I woke up to a miscarriage because I wasn’t supposed to get pregnant. And then, once I finally fell asleep, I would wake up to pee and start it all over again. It was a vicious cycle.
As much as we knew it was not the appropriate time to get pregnant, we started thinking about how we would tell our parents. We started thinking about what would need to happen to move Maverick into his very own Mario ‘big boy’ room.
And the double stroller.
And a vehicle wide enough for three carseats.
We were overwhelmed and thrilled at the thought of another baby. Everything was going to be okay.
Until it was time to take a test.
My basal body temperature was nice and high and, even though First Response Early Result Pregnancy Test detects pregnancy as early as 6 days before the day of your missed period, I waited until three days before. Just like last time.
This time, though, my period came early. It came three days early and it came hard. There was no four day period with only 1 day requiring more than a liner. I bled profusely for 5 straight days. What the heck?
I am still struggling with the thought of Maverick being our final baby. Not a day goes by that I don’t look at my beautiful, happy boy and wish for things to be different. I long for the day I am able to tell Michael yes when he asks for a baby sister.
And in case you were wondering, pregnancy tests are moving on up in the world of convenience. The new First Response test I took had a fancy curved shape designed to fit in a woman’s hand and a 50% wider tip. It was a million times easier to pee on the longer handle. Not to mention, it’s available at all major drugstores, mass and grocery stores for $8.99 – $15.99.
Color me impressed.